Despair fills the room.
It is as though you are blind
unable to see my light.
With your Spirit in a bind
and the pain, a unique kind,
you ask to be released.
Who is the one who releases you?
What is it that they must do?
Must they fight a demon?
Must they cast the past away?
What is it for you that you need to see?
What is it for you, for you to be set free?
Tell me, and it will be delivered today.
Wipe me clean
Let all that is seen
God, allow me to borrow your strength, your might
In that I might become more like you
Strong like you
Clear minded like you
Open hearted like you
Let me be yours
Let me be strength
My brothers and sisters are in the grip of the devil and I call on my Father to save them. My Father is a being of pure love and light. My Father is a being of great strength and might. I cannot live to see more suffering on this earth without taking action in the light any longer. I’ve gotten stronger and it is time for the world to see it. I have a voice, and it is time I release it. Let peace and joy be heard among all nations.
I’ve been gifted with holy rage
I see the world around me in fear
Let me be clear
We must connect more
We must explore the hearts and minds of others
We are sister and brothers
Why are we afraid of one another?
Why are afraid?
Use your eyes wisely.
Keep looking forward.
Ask yourself, “what do you want me to see?”
You’ll find that the truth of you only wants good things for you.
Take control of your imagination.
Re-lease. Renew the lease of the control of your self in the name of your loving God.
Let the fullest love become your life.
Everything else, it falls away.
Love is all there is, and all there will be.
Remember the power your have as a child of God.
The way I see it,
the warrior inside of me
has always been there.
Just pushed down.
Deep inside, her power was kept hidden and guarded.
Waiting for a day when the coast would be clear.
She was buried under criticism,
held down by “not enough” and “can’t”.
She fell into the game of playing small
following those who lived on this land before her.
But the universe had bigger plans for this warrior,
it was time for her to answer the call.
On one hand, it hasn’t been so bad down here.
She made herself comfortable.
She smiled when she was asked how she was.
She made peace with the dark world that she created.
Even though she knew it was not what she was truly capable of
there would be more for her to receive because
she couldn’t stay there forever.
She was running out of air.
Every second she spent held back from potential felt like a century.
She had a kingdom waiting for her.
A throne to pursue.
It is the warrior inside us all who is here to win the world, you see.
So, choose to set this warrior free.
To stop denying her of her innate ability to fly.
Her wings hold more power than anyone will ever comprehend.
She may often be misunderstood.
But better that, than hidden and denied.
The warrior inside is ready to fly.
Newly awakened to the power of the life inside of me, I can’t help but regret not knowing myself in this way sooner. I watch and listen as creation starts from inside of me and becomes my reality.
It’s a habit at this point. Every few days or so, there is a new idea for a movie or book happening from that space. It can happen anywhere, at any time. Delight, real delight comes true to me as the start of a new story begins. The movie script pours into me, characters, storyline, title, and all. Some days, I watch as multiple scenes are acted out. Others, a book is written, published, and shared with the world. It’s magic. I’ve lost myself in the ways of my inner voice. I’ve quit my job, sold my things, and bought a one way ticket to France all because of her. I’ve lived in Florida all my life. Is this what happens when you actually love and care about what’s happening inside of yourself? For 24 years of my life, I’ve lived without knowledge of the power of my inner voice. Someone taught me that it was my conscience and that it could tell me what’s right and what’s wrong. Rarely does my inner voice ever have concerns with telling me what is, however she did share with me that the idea that the only thing inside me was a conscience that told me what was right and wrong, was wrong. What was inside of me, was not an it, it was definitely a she. She could do much more than discern between right and wrong. After traveling the long journey my life has been to come to value this voice, I was ready to receive space to actually witness, hear, and understand this voice. I liked what she had to say, I loved her creations, and the people around me… were distracting me. It was a habit of mine, one I couldn’t discern if it was a good one or a bad one, to put other people above me. I would do anything and everything I could to make the people around me happy. I didn’t want to live like that anymore, but at the same time, I didn’t want to live life serving my own happiness either. I wondered if it was right to be a servant to this inner guide. Or would I learn to serve nothing, to just be? Knowledge of the power within hasn’t exactly given me access to all of the answers like I always thought it would. I didn’t know where I fit in this life and I still didn’t know where the people around me fit into my life either. If they weren’t above me, telling me what to do and how to be, where in my life did they belong? I wasn’t sure. What I was sure of, as I was on my way to entering my 26th year on this earth, was that this was the year that I wanted to see this tiny part of me truly grow. I wanted to see her fully expressed, valued, respected, and loved. She deserved it. I had been blind to the value of this connection to myself for years. It wasn’t until I completely lost contact in 2022, that I recognized that this connection had any value to me. After 2 weeks in Mexico without meditation and with an emotionally abusive boyfriend, I couldn’t hear myself anymore. Were there other people living on this earth without their own inner guidance? If so, how did they survive? I was struggling to. It was hell to live without my inner voice. I started to wonder how many people around me had it, and how many didn’t. I also started to wonder about myself. I had been experiencing something really good going on inside of me, how long had it been there? And how would I get it back?
To every personality I have every clung to, thank you.
You come into my world
A beautiful girl
A talented girl
Girl who works out
Girl who loves smoothies
Girl who loves dating
Girl, girl, girl
I can try forever to be one
but, I’m not.
I’m waking up to all that I am beyond all of the personalities, a reality where I am liberated from being “myself”.
Being “myself” has been painful, exhausting, thrilling, exciting, a journey I have loved deeply, but finally
life takes me into this new moment without any concept of who I am.
No vision to live into, but the vision of full expression of the self that is here in this moment
there is no need for me to be anyone I am not
and no expectation to return into who I once was.
Here I am
a soul occupying a body
and I might never feel this way again
or I might feel this way all the time.
The point is that in this moment, I’m not controlling anything. I’m let off. Released. Broken, like the egg shell that holds the golden yolk.
We would starve, if we never let ourselves get devoured, and transformed.
Christina on her soul vibration
Life on Earth is the ultimate vacation
She’s space traveling in her body
Not trying to be anybody
Other than what is
She is love, that’s all it is
All energy once in stagnation
given up, above
Moved by Jesus
what isn’t favored
Doing a million favors
For Earth and all it’s beings
So much to be seeing
This is what I wanted
This is what I wanted
It’s all right here
Always right here
Christina on Her Soul Vibration
Freedom is ours
So many hours
One by One soon we all will know
I was alone
under a clear night sky
in an empty grass field.
When would I be ready to go inside?
I asked my mind,
the response was,
“yes, let’s go.”
My mind was one that was always ready to experience something new.
My mind asked my soul, “what about you, are you ready to go?”
My soul relied,
forever and ever,
you and me.”
If the word
doesn’t resonate with you,
allow me to share energy from that point of view
I agree, creating life,
is not what we do.
That’s God’s work.
Witnessing and choosing life
that’s what we can do.
Everything has already been done.
Everything exists right now.
how do we live the life of our dreams
in a world where it seems
like we have to work so hard
and long to create?
We generate trust
instead of lust
Our vibration rises higher.
We see empires in our minds.
We develop our virtues.
Stepping back from the hamster wheel
won’t hurt you.
We don’t manifest.
We pass every and all tests.
When we desire something for the future, we are remembering.
We are receiving a memory of a potential future present moment, a message from our Divine Creator.
We receive this memory, we hold it.
Let life be here.
this reality is God made and He has already created Heaven for you.
There is nothing for you to do.
I found my swords.
I reclaimed my right to be strong
and I sliced open the straight jacket they placed my energy in.
I fashioned it,
into a beautiful white cape,
a cape that took the most beautiful shape
as I danced in celebration
of their foolish idea
that anything could ever
contain a woman like me.
Always have been.
Always will be.