Holy Words For Earth

Despair fills the room.

It is as though you are blind

unable to see my light.

With your Spirit in a bind

and the pain, a unique kind,

you ask to be released.

Who is the one who releases you?

What is it that they must do?

Must they fight a demon?

Must they cast the past away?

What is it for you that you need to see?

What is it for you, for you to be set free?

Tell me, and it will be delivered today.

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Wipe me clean

Let all that is seen

In darkness

Be light

God, allow me to borrow your strength, your might

In that I might become more like you

Strong like you

Clear minded like you

Open hearted like you

Let me be yours

Let me be strength

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My brothers and sisters are in the grip of the devil and I call on my Father to save them. My Father is a being of pure love and light. My Father is a being of great strength and might. I cannot live to see more suffering on this earth without taking action in the light any longer. I’ve gotten stronger and it is time for the world to see it. I have a voice, and it is time I release it. Let peace and joy be heard among all nations.

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I’ve been gifted with holy rage

I see the world around me in fear

Let me be clear

We must connect more

We must explore the hearts and minds of others

We are sister and brothers

Why are we afraid of one another?

Why are afraid?

Old Stuff

Would it be okay with you, if I were to really feel it?

Would you be filled with anxiety if I were to reveal it,

How I’m really feeling about this life right here?

What I really think about this world right now?

Im always disconnected

Love is neglected

And misunderstood

I should do it this way

I can’t do it that way

I’m not happy

Or at least I’m not free to express it

Am I free to express anything?

There are so many people around me who can sing

But I’ll never hear their voices

Im too caught up in analyzing the choices i make

Regretting the opportunities I don’t take

Do I even see them?

When did I agree to get this blind?

To allow this spirit to be bound by time?

This is not going the way that I thought it would

I wanna make the world shake

But I can’t do it alone

I need to you help us build a better home

Come home with me

Come home with me

the ugly girl

When you have been the ugly girl

the outsider girl

the awkward girl

the not invited to the party girl

the sitting alone in the cafeteria girl,

you have something that 

the girls and boys who fit in 

all their lives 

will never have.

You know how to be alone, 

and absolutely love it

because you were so isolated, 

that you were forced to love yourself.

You can walk into a room full of people 

and not care about what any of them think

because you know it can’t possibly be worse 

than what you’ve already been told to your face.

There are other days though, 

where you are alone, 

and you absolutely hate it

because the only thing that you can think about is 

what purpose there could possibly be 

for anyone to ever be so cruel to you.

You walk into a room full of people 

and get hit with waves of anxiety and horror

because you imagine that you can hear what they are all thinking 

about you and your body and your face and your hair

and the words feel like metal scraping the inside of your body.

There is so much 

that you experience 

in you own mind, 

that you don’t think anyone 

will ever understand

today, you are a beautiful woman, 

and no one you know today 

thinks of you as the ugly girl that you believe you are.

And you wish you could see you how they must see you.

They have a clean slate, yours has been dirtied by name calling and teasing.

You can’t see yourself without it

and they can’t see you with it.

No one will ever keep the ugly girl alive like you do

and no one can ever let her go like you should.

The Warrior

The way I see it, 
the warrior inside of me
has always been there.

Just pushed down.
Deep inside, her power was kept hidden and guarded.
Waiting for a day when the coast would be clear.

She was buried under criticism,
held down by “not enough” and “can’t”.
She fell into the game of playing small 

following those who lived on this land before her.
But the universe had bigger plans for this warrior,
it was time for her to answer the call.

On one hand, it hasn’t been so bad down here.
She made herself comfortable.
She smiled when she was asked how she was.

She made peace with the dark world that she created. 
Even though she knew it was not what she was truly capable of
there would be more for her to receive because 

she couldn’t stay there forever.
She was running out of air.
Every second she spent held back from potential felt like a century.

She had a kingdom waiting for her.
A throne to pursue.
It is the warrior inside us all who is here to win the world, you see.

So, choose to set this warrior free.
To stop denying her of her innate ability to fly.
Her wings hold more power than anyone will ever comprehend.

She may often be misunderstood.
But better that, than hidden and denied.
The warrior inside is ready to fly.

A New Story Begins

Newly awakened to the power of the life inside of me, I can’t help but regret not knowing myself in this way sooner. I watch and listen as creation starts from inside of me and becomes my reality. 

It’s a habit at this point. Every few days or so, there is a new idea for a movie or book happening from that space. It can happen anywhere, at any time. Delight, real delight comes true to me as the start of a new story begins. The movie script pours into me, characters, storyline, title, and all. Some days, I watch as multiple scenes are acted out. Others, a book is written, published, and shared with the world. It’s magic. I’ve lost myself in the ways of my inner voice. I’ve quit my job, sold my things, and bought a one way ticket to France all because of her. I’ve lived in Florida all my life. Is this what happens when you actually love and care about what’s happening inside of yourself? For 24 years of my life, I’ve lived without knowledge of the power of my inner voice. Someone taught me that it was my conscience and that it could tell me what’s right and what’s wrong. Rarely does my inner voice ever have concerns with telling me what is, however she did share with me that the idea that the only thing inside me was a conscience that told me what was right and wrong, was wrong. What was inside of me, was not an it, it was definitely a she. She could do much more than discern between right and wrong. After traveling the long journey my life has been to come to value this voice, I was ready to receive space to actually witness, hear, and understand this voice. I liked what she had to say, I loved her creations, and the people around me… were distracting me. It was a habit of mine, one I couldn’t discern if it was a good one or a bad one, to put other people above me. I would do anything and everything I could to make the people around me happy. I didn’t want to live like that anymore, but at the same time, I didn’t want to live life serving my own happiness either. I wondered if it was right to be a servant to this inner guide. Or would I learn to serve nothing, to just be? Knowledge of the power within hasn’t exactly given me access to all of the answers like I always thought it would. I didn’t know where I fit in this life and I still didn’t know where the people around me fit into my life either. If they weren’t above me, telling me what to do and how to be, where in my life did they belong? I wasn’t sure. What I was sure of, as I was on my way to entering my 26th year on this earth, was that this was the year that I wanted to see this tiny part of me truly grow. I wanted to see her fully expressed, valued, respected, and loved. She deserved it. I had been blind to the value of this connection to myself for years. It wasn’t until I completely lost contact in 2022, that I recognized that this connection had any value to me. After 2 weeks in Mexico without meditation and with an emotionally abusive boyfriend, I couldn’t hear myself anymore. Were there other people living on this earth without their own inner guidance? If so, how did they survive? I was struggling to. It was hell to live without my inner voice. I started to wonder how many people around me had it, and how many didn’t. I also started to wonder about myself. I had been experiencing something really good going on inside of me, how long had it been there? And how would I get it back?

To Every Personality I Have Ever Clung To

To every personality I have every clung to, thank you.

You come into my world

A beautiful girl

A talented girl

Wise girl

Strong girl

Girl who works out

Girl who loves smoothies

Girl who loves dating

Girl, girl, girl

I can try forever to be one

but, I’m not.

I’m waking up to all that I am beyond all of the personalities, a reality where I am liberated from being “myself”.

Being “myself” has been painful, exhausting, thrilling, exciting, a journey I have loved deeply, but finally

life takes me into this new moment without any concept of who I am.

No vision to live into, but the vision of full expression of the self that is here in this moment

there is no need for me to be anyone I am not

and no expectation to return into who I once was.

Here I am

a person

a soul occupying a body

new

bright

and I might never feel this way again

or I might feel this way all the time.

The point is that in this moment, I’m not controlling anything. I’m let off. Released. Broken, like the egg shell that holds the golden yolk.

We would starve, if we never let ourselves get devoured, and transformed.

Soul Vibration

Christina on her soul vibration

Life on Earth is the ultimate vacation

She’s space traveling in her body

Not trying to be anybody

Other than what is

She is love, that’s all it is

All energy once in stagnation

given up, above

Moved by Jesus

Improving

Dissolving

what isn’t favored

Doing a million favors

For Earth and all it’s beings

So much to be seeing

This is what I wanted

This is what I wanted

It’s all right here

Always right here

Christina on Her Soul Vibration

Remembering Illumination

Freedom is ours

So many hours

letting go

One by One soon we all will know

He’s back

Night Sky

I was alone 
under a clear night sky
in an empty grass field.

When would I be ready to go inside?

I asked my mind, 
the response was, 
“yes, let’s go.” 

My mind was one that was always ready to experience something new. 

My mind asked my soul, “what about you, are you ready to go?”
My soul relied, 
“no. 
Stay here, 
just be, 
forever and ever, 
you and me.”

blurred lines

I like taking my glasses off,
so that I can see. 

When my glasses are off, 
everything is blurry.

I can’t tell where I stop, 
and you begin.

Something about that, 
is familiar to me.

Something about that, 
feels like home to me.

The ocean, the sky, the sand, and the sun 
all become one.

I stay.
I watch.

And when I put my glasses back on, 
nothing changes.

No thing that truly matters 
ever does. 

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If the word
manifest

doesn’t resonate with you,
allow me to share energy from that point of view

I agree, creating life, 
is not what we do.

That’s God’s work.
It’s true.
Witnessing and choosing life
that’s what we can do.

Selecting life.
Remembering life.

Everything has already been done.
Everything exists right now.

So how…

how do we live the life of our dreams 
in a world where it seems 
like we have to work so hard 
and long to create?

We stop.
We generate trust
instead of lust
wanting ends
trying expires.

Our vibration rises higher.

We see empires in our minds.

Faith.
Patience.
Grace.
Goodness.

We develop our virtues.
Stepping back from the hamster wheel 
won’t hurt you.

We don’t manifest.
We pass every and all tests.

When we desire something for the future, we are remembering.

We are receiving a memory of a potential future present moment, a message from our Divine Creator.

We receive this memory, we hold it.

Let life be here.
Be clear
receive 

this reality is God made and He has already created Heaven for you.
There is nothing for you to do.

It’s all
Right
Here