My brothers and sisters are in the grip of the devil and I call on my Father to save them. My Father is a being of pure love and light. My Father is a being of great strength and might. I cannot live to see more suffering on this earth without taking action in the light any longer. I’ve gotten stronger and it is time for the world to see it. I have a voice, and it is time I release it. Let peace and joy be heard among all nations.
The way I see it, the warrior inside of me has always been there.
Just pushed down. Deep inside, her power was kept hidden and guarded. Waiting for a day when the coast would be clear.
She was buried under criticism, held down by “not enough” and “can’t”. She fell into the game of playing small
following those who lived on this land before her. But the universe had bigger plans for this warrior, it was time for her to answer the call.
On one hand, it hasn’t been so bad down here. She made herself comfortable. She smiled when she was asked how she was.
She made peace with the dark world that she created. Even though she knew it was not what she was truly capable of there would be more for her to receive because
she couldn’t stay there forever. She was running out of air. Every second she spent held back from potential felt like a century.
She had a kingdom waiting for her. A throne to pursue. It is the warrior inside us all who is here to win the world, you see.
So, choose to set this warrior free. To stop denying her of her innate ability to fly. Her wings hold more power than anyone will ever comprehend.
She may often be misunderstood. But better that, than hidden and denied. The warrior inside is ready to fly.
In this moment, it means noticing my body is wrapped in the towel I placed around it after I showered. I’m cold.
If I valued my body more than I valued sharing words with the world, I would have an entirely different life. See, I was taught to put work first, over everything. So here I am, uncomfortable, but getting stuff done. Is the discomfort truly necessary?
I wanted to try something new. I had been putting myself in the most uncomfortable situations all my young adult life, and what did that get me?
What if my comfort started to matter to me? What if I cared more about me feeling good, than success? When it came to making choices, I wanted to put more energy into being aware of what I was truly feeling, and less energy into what everyone else around me seemed to want for me.
Newly awakened to the power of the life inside of me, I can’t help but regret not knowing myself in this way sooner. I watch and listen as creation starts from inside of me and becomes my reality.
It’s a habit at this point. Every few days or so, there is a new idea for a movie or book happening from that space. It can happen anywhere, at any time. Delight, real delight comes true to me as the start of a new story begins. The movie script pours into me, characters, storyline, title, and all. Some days, I watch as multiple scenes are acted out. Others, a book is written, published, and shared with the world. It’s magic. I’ve lost myself in the ways of my inner voice. I’ve quit my job, sold my things, and bought a one way ticket to France all because of her. I’ve lived in Florida all my life. Is this what happens when you actually love and care about what’s happening inside of yourself? For 24 years of my life, I’ve lived without knowledge of the power of my inner voice. Someone taught me that it was my conscience and that it could tell me what’s right and what’s wrong. Rarely does my inner voice ever have concerns with telling me what is, however she did share with me that the idea that the only thing inside me was a conscience that told me what was right and wrong, was wrong. What was inside of me, was not an it, it was definitely a she. She could do much more than discern between right and wrong. After traveling the long journey my life has been to come to value this voice, I was ready to receive space to actually witness, hear, and understand this voice. I liked what she had to say, I loved her creations, and the people around me… were distracting me. It was a habit of mine, one I couldn’t discern if it was a good one or a bad one, to put other people above me. I would do anything and everything I could to make the people around me happy. I didn’t want to live like that anymore, but at the same time, I didn’t want to live life serving my own happiness either. I wondered if it was right to be a servant to this inner guide. Or would I learn to serve nothing, to just be? Knowledge of the power within hasn’t exactly given me access to all of the answers like I always thought it would. I didn’t know where I fit in this life and I still didn’t know where the people around me fit into my life either. If they weren’t above me, telling me what to do and how to be, where in my life did they belong? I wasn’t sure. What I was sure of, as I was on my way to entering my 26th year on this earth, was that this was the year that I wanted to see this tiny part of me truly grow. I wanted to see her fully expressed, valued, respected, and loved. She deserved it. I had been blind to the value of this connection to myself for years. It wasn’t until I completely lost contact in 2022, that I recognized that this connection had any value to me. After 2 weeks in Mexico without meditation and with an emotionally abusive boyfriend, I couldn’t hear myself anymore. Were there other people living on this earth without their own inner guidance? If so, how did they survive? I was struggling to. It was hell to live without my inner voice. I started to wonder how many people around me had it, and how many didn’t. I also started to wonder about myself. I had been experiencing something really good going on inside of me, how long had it been there? And how would I get it back?
Heart to Heart connection so deep No need to repeat History this isn’t His-story or Her-story
It’s GOD’S STORY
His Light is illuminated to it’s original glory. We’re in a new paradigm.
It’s our time To shine To love To receive and give Not from each other But from our Father
We’re remembering Who we came here to be How we came here to shine
We know what it feels like to truly live
2023 Is the year for you and me 2023 Is the year that we’re free From the plans that were never true anything not of God falls through and we’re left with perfection. What was promised after Jesus’ Resurrection is here. We are so so clear.
Our minds are free Our hearts are open No more hoping, but knowing. No more wishing, just growing.
No need to win. Less and less sin. A world with real harmony.
2023 There’s no war on reality. Freely living, Moment to Moment Giving
We don’t hold anything Angels say our voices will ring
Letting go, releasing any and all things Placed to stop us from being true
Nothing can touch me and you We choose Union with the One who made us
The best part of life is being with Him And we remember 2023
Sacred reality God’s heavenly plan For you and me Is beyond the 2022 reality
Pure harmony We remember Where we came from We remember Who we are
My heart breaks a little bit every time I turn my back to the ocean. I don’t know why, but it does. Tonight, I rode my bike to Vinoy park in Saint Petersburg. The moon was full and bright. The sky was colorful. The air was clear and refreshing. I was riding my bike on a decently thick sidewalk, with no one coming down my path for miles. I could turn my head to the left side of me to allow all of my focus to go towards the ocean. I was in bliss. It was wonderful to be able to ride my bike forward, to be headed in the right direction, yet have no focus on that at all. All of my focus was occupied with taking in the beauty of the ocean. It was sparkling so much, with the light of the moon. The moments of this bike ride were absolutely amazing. My full presence was in joy.
This is kind of what it feels like to fully trust God in the moments of our lives.
Despite how this world may seem to function, we don’t need to have our focus held so tightly in controlling the aspects of our lives. It’s Jesus, God, and our Spiritual Guides with their hands on our lives that allow us to live this way. It’s how we were designed to live. Yet, we aren’t all taught this. I was taught to work hard always, and to sacrifice joy for security and success. Now, in God’s presence, I’m learning to prioritize my connection with Him. I’m learning that what God wants for me is different than what I was taught to seek within the physical world.
Back in my physical world, my bike ride was coming to an end. I felt my hands pivot to bring my bike onto a new pathway. My head had to turn away from the ocean, to face the road in front of me. Time slowed down, and I felt something inside of me sink, break, and shift.
This is what it feels like to disconnect from the full trust in God that is available to us in all moments of our lives.
I was feeling that way, because I attached the light, lifted, fun feeling I had when I was watching the ocean, with the ocean. In reality, that feeling had nothing to do with my surroundings, none of our feelings do. That light, lifted, fun feeling was all God, all of this life is. I remembered that I could access heavenly feelings at anytime, in any place when I got home and prayed.
Our surroundings act as a reason for us to feel different ways, but in reality, we can feel exactly the same in every single moment of our lives if we want to and choose to. That feeling of joy and freedom I received from riding my bike isn’t isolated to those moments in my experience. Now that I know the feeling, I can access it again here. Typing on my laptop, sharing this story, I can reach into my heart and find that beautiful presence of God again. Some people call it flow state, I call it “swimming in the Love of God”. It’s the lightest feeling in the body—accessible anytime, anywhere, by any person. A true miracle. That’s God’s Love.
So, relax and receive, again and again, for all of eternity.
Christina Ariana 