Everything around you, is you. If you don’t trust something in this world, you don’t trust something in you. If you don’t trust everything in you, you won’t trust everything in this world. There is nothing wrong with not having full trust in yourself. There is nothing wrong with not having full trust in this world.
Today I am in the JFK airport in New York City. I arrived here from Paris, France at 10pm. My next flight is going to Salt Lake City, Utah, and it leaves at 6:30am. I’ve been waiting in a corner of the airport check in area for a while now.
I met the woman who sat next to me a few moments ago, and we exchanged a few words. She told me about her trip to Istanbul, Turkey. About an hour passed and I had to go to the bathroom. I definitely wanted to leave my suitcase, and I thought it would be wise to take my backpack with me. I told the woman I was going to the bathroom and asked if she would be okay watching my things. She said, “yes leave it here!” I left all of my things, and walked to the bathroom.
As my body began moving towards the bathroom and away from my things, I watched thoughts come into my awareness quicker. Anxiety, fear, and worry, all three were present. After a few moments of listening to that worry, I heard a stronger, more clear voice inside of me say, “and what does your heart think?” I took my focus out of my thoughts and as I witnessed my heart… I was calm. The next thing I thought to myself was, “here I am, expanding my ability to trust life.”
You who is reading this might think I’m crazy. Why didn’t I just take my things with me, so that I didn’t have to worry? A question I would like to ask is, why would I miss an opportunity to show myself that this world has good people in it, good people that are trustworthy?
I trust in the flow of this life. I trust in the feelings in my heart. I watch my mind grow in awareness of the goodness of this world. It really can be a place of pure goodness. I believe that.
For anyone that is wondering, when I got back from the bathroom, my things were untouched. Some would say, “lucky you!” Luck is not a factor for me here, instead, a deep knowing of my connection/relationship with the universe, with everything that is here right now, is present. That truly is all that I need. This knowing of who I am leads me into the situations that are right for me. I trust my decisions because I trust myself to follow the highest callings of the universe. I welcome in greater trust in life. Amen.
Christina Ariana 